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And i'm still working at singtel digital media.
i figured that if their budget for my employment lasts until end of aug, i might as well make use of the time to look for a job while still earning some income.

anyways
i'll will be going for an interview with karu at gramophone at cathay
i'll also be attempting to get my application through at MOE once more
and something else with olivia.

hopefully i'll get a job that pays reasonably well where it doesn't suck all my time away
and i can use the free time to build on my portfolio.

or something else good might come my way :)

we'll see.

I cannot help but imagine this song being used for a TTGL amv starring Kamina.

Video here:

the video's audio is chopped in some areas i think?
just go to youtube and look for the full version i suppose.


( Lyrics below )

seriously. listen to it and imagine TTGL scenes.

This post is mainly for symph.

It's been a long time :)
How have you been?
I see that josh has grown up really well.

It's good to see you online again and posting :D

incomplete song:

Title: My Shining Star

Chords: cannon chords

( lyrics + video under cut )

Thanks to Rika i manage to get a general idea of who wants to see me suffer cosplay as.

Result of poll(LJ):
Sun jian - 9 votes
Zhou Tai - 5 votes
Lu Meng - 1 vote (i vetoed my own vote to be fair)
Lu Bu - 9 Votes

Results of Poll(ppl not on LJ + unofficial votes from LJ):
Sun jian - 5 votes
Zhou Tai - 5 votes
Lu Meng - 2 votes
Lu Bu - 1 Vote

Total votes:
Sun jian - 14 votes
Zhou Tai - 10 votes
Lu Meng - 3 vote
Lu Bu - 10 Votes

Result:
1 - Sun Jian
2 - Zhou Tai/ Lu Bu
3 - Lu Meng (i think you guys just want to torture me by not choosing him. since he has NO armor)

As i have mentioned earlier. i'll go look for materials on thursday
say if i can find what i need to make the armor i'll cos the highest ranking choice
if by any chance i can't find the ideal material(e.g lu bu's 1.5m long pair of pheasant feather feelers in red)i'll skip that character and shift my attention to the next in line.

To make things even more insane.

i'll be preparing two different costumes or at the very least attempt to.

As it is, Sun jian is confirmed as my day 1 costume.

and it'll be fate to decide if i cos zhou tai or lu bu for 2nd day.

look forward to it guys,
i don't even know if i'll fail so badly and turn up without a costume or succeed with so much win that i attend cosfest in two different completed costumes.

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Because i was asked a stupid question on msn.
"why sun jian on day one?"

and here is the million dollar ans:
it is much, MUCH logical to cos Sun Jian on day one THEN shave my goatee off for Zhou tai or Lu bu on day 2 because it is very much easier to shave in 10 mins then to grow a goatee in less then 24 hours.

Because i'm cheap and i don't want to see Ads in my LJ
i don't have a paid acct nor a plus acct and i don't plan to change that.

therefore i can't create polls.
Rika is nice so she create this poll for me instead

WHO SHOULD JOE COSPLAY FOR COSFEST FROM DW6

do me a favor and take the poll.

i have a squealer in my custom group.

it's all good.
and since it's pointless to actually have a custom group so we can avoid confrontation and drama while still being able to say things we want
.
lets just fuck that to hell and i'll post the following followup conversation i had with yun shall we?

( Conversation under cut )

Lets see.
Nope i don't think i did anything wrong, i'm still very much entitled in any way to post about my opinions of her on the internet since she was the only one who said she would stop posting opinions of me online and thats what she'll do since she's the one that is honest to herself. we can't have a honest hypocrite, thats just oxymoronic.

and seriously yun, so what if you are disappointed in me. your opinion of me already sucks to the core over something that is nothing. i might as well get my money's worth and actually do something worthy of your disappointment. ironically, i don't think i did disappointed you since you already did assume that i'll post the convo up in my journal.

please, leave the assuming to others. if you want something done your way, speak up. thinking i will do things you think i would doesn't make me do what you want. The world doesn't quite revolve around you in that way.

also, you had your issues with me way before, you didn't approach me way back then. what makes you think i'll do the same for you NOW when you yourself don't do what you expect others to do.

and frankly, you are just as "predictable" as i am. since you are now quite possibly thinking like "wtf closure. such a loser. only losers have closure. haha! and now he's posting another journal post. awww so sad." blah blah blah. I know i am not that far off the mark.

haha and bye to you too.

Thanks to Rika, Alexiel, Amanda, Zeph, BA, Mizu, Hyso, Zean, SPT, riri and leon( plus whoever mizu brought along) for coming yesterday to chillout with me.

Special thanks to Zeph and Amanda for getting me a cake
it was good cake even tho i can't fully appreciate it(since it's got chocolate)

BUT! thanks to you girls, i found out today there is actually a kind of chocolate i can safely consume without turning green.(i think that piece of white chocolate was the first piece of white chocolate i've ever ate) So instead of thinking the actual chocolates i got was the present, i choose to think that knowing that there is some kind of chocolate i can eat with little to no ill effects is the freaking awesome present i got from you babes.

Thanks to Kuni-cheebye, Kazu-gay, Lynette, Natalie, Natsu, Ciel and Olivia and many others for sending me well wishes even tho you couldn't turn up.

Love goes out to Liv and everyone else(i still don't know who else is involved) who chipped in for the hard disk(massive love since it's something on my wishlist), Kuni-cheebye for Street fighter 4(PC version) and Riri and Leon for drinks(which i will collect sometime in the future).

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I feel really bad for choosing such a chillout activity to do(smoking shisha) when i know some of you are real party animals. i love you guys/girls for staying for so long there getting bored out of your skins.

I'm also really sorry that 2 of you learned how to smoke shisha. I'm such a fucking bad influence.

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Lots of love,
Joe

I wokeup feeling mightly emotions today.
what a way to get the blood flowing and getting ur head hurting.

It's amazing how someone can dislike what i do and yet still wants to keep me on their various online profiles.

There is no logical reasoning for anyone to do that.

as for waking up feeling like i did.
i had a very convincing dream about a group of "friends" of mine.
who recently are behaving in very unfriend-like manner in very subtle ways.

in the dream, i dream that i could hear their deepest thoughts and see their true intentions
it wasn't just limited to them. i could hear everyone else around me
murmuring mutterings but they were the ones who's thoughts shouted out to be because my attention was on them.

If that is a taste of what it is like to be able to read thoughts
i do not want to ever have that power.
it is overwhelming, the human mind was not made to handle so much information.

When you are able to hear everyone's throught, it is as though you have their memories as well
The best way to describe what i went through in my dream was my brain was a single processor suddenly handling a network of harddrives while still maintaining and running the OS interface and having multiple applications opened up which are located in various different harddives in that network i have access to.

I somehow got pissed because i finally "know" why they considered me their friend
using the computer example, it's like finding out that the various applications you have opened are actually trying to hack you while appearing all innocent. Basically spyware.

I woke up about the time where i realize those people arn't my friends at all and they are the human equivalent of a trojan, spyware or malware. where one day they'll activate and disrupt my life.

man do i feel fucked up waking up from that.

ok, i've been on this search since god knows forever

i don't want a spiffy DSLR with all it's hugeness
but i don't want a stupid PnS camera too

why can't they gimme something thats a hybrid between the two?

well... apparently there ARE hybrids
or attempts at making hybrids.

First is Sigma DP1 and DP2, world'a first compact camera(s) to use a SLR sensor.
and they have ridiculous prices on it. (SGD$1250 for the basic kit)

and the other note worthies are:
- Panasonic Lumix DMC-LX3*
- Nikon Coolpix P6000*
- Ricoh GX100*
- Ricoh GX200 (effectively the same as GX100 but not by much)
- Leica D-LUX 3
- Leica D-LUX 4* (i can't remember if it was the one what was ridiculously prices over 1k)

I've tried all the camera that has a * beside them
and i'm in love with all of them.
although i must say that the Ricohs were rather annoying since they are auto focus and doesn't give me quite enough control because of that(shutter speed and apeture is manual tho)

The others were within my expectations with the leica appealing to me the most aesthetically but i felt that the nikon was the best of the lot in terms of value and functionality.

I've also tried out Nikon's D5000 and D90
both of which were very very nice but i still felt that the D5000 was tailor made to my needs

in any case...
i think i'll save up for the P6000
or at the least wait till the prices drop further

This is for the people interested in hanging out tomorrow for dinner/shisha/whatever

Whats happening:
Tomorrow i'll be in the bugis area at about 6pm onwards.

actual location for dinner is not set, purely on whelm as to which shisha place i want to settle down for the night at.

so calling me up is a good idea if you want to find me unless you want to go on a jow hunt, looking around haji lane/arab street for me.

After dinner plans are not fixed or finalized. will most likely decide what to do during dinner itself.

Confirmed Guests:
I didn't bother to check who is coming, whoever comes looking for me is pretty much whoever will be there.

Contact/Number to call:
90888110

Things to note:
IF you want to drink, please BYO(bring your own) BUT make sure it's kept in your bag covered at all times, make it not obvious that is is a bottle of booze.

we will be in a halal/muslim place, booze is haraam/forbidden/BAD.
so please don't do something stupid like drinking beer there.
respect their culture and all is good while we chill at their place.

Joe Is God.

That DS/iPhone app i was talking about?
Colors!

i just tried it on my DS.
It's pretty much a dumb down version of corel painter
simple, straight to the point and fun to use
it's been sometime since MS paint that i found something i kinda like to use for my graphics

draw back is that everything i do looks like a pastel water color painting.

I suppose i can get use to it so i can start drawing stuff that i usually draw

heres my trial piece on the app that took me about 5 or 10 mins to complete.


it's no master piece but it sure as hell tells me what this app can do

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i just found out that u can load pictures into it to paint instead of drawing everything from scratch with the DS's rather insensitive touch screen.

cool!
that means it's almost exactly like corel painter!

which possibly means that feature is possibly what i'll use it for mostly i suppose?
maybe...

For those of you who have a DS or i-phone
heres an awesome homebrew app for DS or DSL or iphones

COLORS!

See the details of the app on it's home page
http://colors.collectingsmiles.com/index.php

i haven't tried it yet but from what i see it's pretty awesome

recommended to me by a UK artist i was speaking to.

try it out :D

seriously, what the fuck is wrong with you.

what makes you think my recent song composition has anything to do with your friend?

she's over and done with and the lyrics was inspired by someone else.

do you really think the universe revolves around you and your pals?

please don't think too highly of your friend or too lowly of my ability to adapt.

do yourself a favor and don't make assumptions of people you don't keep in touch with.

Whats the use of a journal?

Be it being private or public, a journal's main usage is archiving an individual's life.

Personally, i use it as a emotional dump as well,
if i'm angry, sad or happy about something, i write about it either to get it out of my system so i can go on as a well-balanced human being or in the case of happy moments, i get to relive those moments again in my head when i read the lines i wrote when i was feeling those good vibes.

What do you use your journal for?

Quite possibly my most emo lyrics but least emo sounding tune.

This is for everyone who was overlooked by the person they like/love.

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Title: Overlooked by You
Chords used: C Em Am F D

Capo on 3rd fret.

Lyrics

Verse 1:
I put myself before you, but you never seem to notice.
I could have died infront of you, but you would never shed a tear.
You always say there is none for you, but you had me by your side

Bridge/Chorus 1:
I feel as thou as i have fade away, never to be in your life
I feel as thou as i have fade away, nothing that i could have said.

Verse 2:
You found yourself a love, someone who would care for you.
But you went out of your way to find him, when all you had to do is turn.
I felt so left behind, that i have been over-looked by you

Bridge/Chorus 2:
I feel as thou as i have fade away, never to be in your life
I feel as thou as i have fade away, nothing that i could have said.
I cry a little, died just a little.*

No idea what this part is because it's only one line:
Though i cry and fade away, there nothing better then yesterday,
with you.

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Play Notes:

Order:
Verse 1
B/Chorus 1
- transition rhythm
Verse 2
B/Chorus 2
- transition rhythm
Verse 1
B/Chorus 1
One liner


Intro - C X4
Progression rhythm 1 - C Em Am F
Progression rhythm 2 - C Em Am D (use for last line of verse)
Transition rhythm 1 - C Em Am F X2 ((b3mbm strumming style)


Guitar plucking options(incomplete. don't use):
|---------0-----5----------|----------------------|
|-1-3-1-3--0-0--5-5-----5--|----------------------|
|-------------------7-7---5|----------------------|
|--------------------------|----------------------|
|--------------------------|----------------------|
|--------------------------|----------------------|


Ending progression for last line of chorus 1 at end + one liner same as Progression rhythm 1 but in slow single strokes down.

uncertain to use:
* C and F chords single stroke but place pinky on 3rd fret high E string while strumming. sounds weird. use normal C & F.

End with C chord fade.

to do nothing for my birthday or the entire Bday weekend for that matter after some thought.

i think i would stay home and bum.

why? Simply because i found it too troublesome to organize something like that due to the ridiculous logistics.

what logistics??? hum... how shall i explain it.

although it would be nice to have all my pals around but it's impossible since some people don't get along with other people or some people have their busy work schedule(i think it's perfectly ok not to party due to work because the economy is still bad) and therefore makes it impossible to achieve "nice".

in my head i'm thinking allocation/deployment of people -> logistics therefore impossible logistics. Does that even make sense? lets move on.

also because of above mention factors, i also realize that my natural instinct^ of gathering large groups of my favorite people* is self-destructive right from the start.

Seeing no easy solution, i decided to fuck it all. *shows everyone the finger*

What a way to pass my first year as a mid 20ish person.
go me.

and if you don't give a shit, don't bother reading or replying to this.
your opinion pretty much amount to me as the same level of annoyance as this post is to you.

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^ - I quite possibly have a annoying compulsive need have people around my person with no logical explanation that i can provide besides that i like being around people.

* - I must admit here that i purposely left out some of you from the original plans because of space issues AND because i know some of you would generally think it's lame to have some cheer in life thus you laugh and mock at my feeble attempts at making my life generally content-able, i still love you nonetheless but i decided to leave you out to preserve the general positivity associated with such social events like birthdays.

In more understandable and offensive terms, You guys are bratty/snobbish assholes but you're still my beloved friends that i allow to grinds away at my ever thinning patience.